A New Found Freedom

I'm Free. Perhaps not completely or permanently, but at this moment, I'm Free. My estranged wife came to my workplace last night to give me a birthday hug. After the awkward hug moment, I mentioned something she refuses to discuss and she immediately turned and left. I reacted with rage, calling my (her) sister and venting, asking why she was being such a horrible person and all of the things I've asked for 9 months. After thanking my sister for listening and hanging up, I real-ized what I have read probably 20 times this year: I was allowing someone else to control my emotions. I am amazed that it took this long to come to my a-ha moment but, as a friend said, "You can read all about CPR, but that doesn't mean that you know how to do it." I have finally arrived at a degree of peace I haven't had since the inception of these life changes; I will work to keep it.